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Wahahz~todae's monday....had by english paper 2..tommorow would be the las test i would be having for mid years---d&t.... actually now i'm a bit more relaxed because d&t is...a more not stressful subject bahz~i donnoe...before my exams..i supposed myself to be very damn happy once i finished my exams...but now..when i'm only left with one more subject...i should be already getting the touch..getting the feel of the feeling of happiness...but....the feelign no longer existed...i dun feel happy and relaxed now..i feel so sianz...the feeling is so completely different from what i used to feel in primary school...hiyz...does that mean anything?i dun noe duhz..... hiyz~feel dat this june isn't going to be a nice one....hiyz... a boring june~lifeless...maybe except on my birthday lahz~but maybe besides on my birthday..life would be dull...hiyz~i have intended to learn the violin with weiting...but i think...better dun learn ler bahz~pearly had given me a real bad impression on violin...sianz~it was like...if u learn violin..ur fingers will hurt just s if a chopper chopped down ur fingers slowly one by one...over and over again...siau... and then she also commented that you will feel sianz and dun have the interest in violin anymorez after you learn it for a period of time...like very waste MY own money if i buy...i dun have enough money duhz...what u guyz expect...i only have $250 bucks...and that $250 is for me to get my beloved handphone...[my father suddested that he would get me that handphone as my birthday present..but i dun wan lolz...i want this handphoine ot be truely mine...for i have saved for half a year for that pityful 250 bucks?i still need another 350 bucks..o well...a long way to go.. ]see..means i completely HAVE NO MONEY...still want to learn violin..still want to buy violin...buy what shit lorz...no money...can't even afford the violin lessons costs...and the violin..[ violin costs $700] better dun learn arhz ~weiting is saying it very easily i guess.... her parents are buying it for her~!and i think her lessons fee would also be payed by her parents...now times r different...i have to pay for own expenses... i have to live solely on the pocket money i get...hiyz...luckily last year i brought bread to eat in school daily as well...so got this small sum of money..around $100..to pay off that *toot*ing class fund....hiyz..now every morning i see the bread i got to eat..i feel like vomitting..no appetite...feel that the bread r so disgusting..last time still got what tuna etc...now everyday only either get what ommelette in bread..which taste damn awlful..but i dare not comment anything...and this stupid fish thiny in between the read..which also taste kinda disgusting..coz got mayonise...o well...what can i say??what can i do??i opnly have this way to save money...now every morning only can manage to eat a slice..or half a slice..then i put everything back into that container...and hand it to my father...ask him to either eat it..throw it..or....hiyz~what cani do?HUMAN ARE THE SLAVES OF MONEY....HUMAN ARE TORTURED BY MONEY.... HIYZ.....