**jinx**...i'm so sorry..

I'm a jinx...i'm really sorrie guyz..guyz..listen up..my apologies to you FIRST in case in near future i might **jinx** you...like..some of my victims so far..kenneth..ivan and ben gan...juz becoz'of that stupid research made my me and banana...juz because banana gave me the wrong sum..juz because...i'm really very guilty now u noe..ivan ignore me.kenneth hate me.but ben gan'just says he okay..this makes me more guilty u noe...its like..ben gan'treats me quite well..i treat him as my best frenx for the starting of the school year he is the first few frenx i knew...and..i actually did this..i'm so guilty..i asked him to hate me.he said:'ok..i hate u for this second..'then i said..what i meant is to hate me..hate me a day..hate me forever...then he says..i'll hate u for 24 seconds..now i'm not hating you anymorez....the hate i mean..is like forever hate... i'm so guilty u noe..i'm really guilty...went to find mr khor straight after PE..during first recess..why?coz i was really stressed out todae...i asked him..if he was going to call their parents..mr khor said his not going to do anything..because he has already told everything to our form techer..luckily my form teacher is an understanding teacher i guess... when she came into the classroom..immediately i went to find her..then ben gan also want to hear what i was telling her..but i stopped him..coz i felt really guilty and i was afraid that he might stop me or sth like dat..what i wanted to do..was to give myself a chance to make myself less guilt..then i asked my form teacher saying that if she could give them i chance..and i told her that i feel really guilty..she said ok...and will not call their parents..but only to investigate.finally i felt that..ok..at last i felt least guilt.but who knows...later in the lesson..she said she wants to see kenneth..ivan and ben gan.....i'm really very guilty..the feeling of death..not really..i bet i wouldn't even dare to pick up the knife and do dangerous stuff..juz a little cut on me will seems like big hole through my heart to me...hiyz..i really feel so guilty..i was persuading and persuading ben gan'to hate me..i really feel very veyr very guily..like i betrayed my frenx or sth like dat..to the teachers..maybe i really did a right thing..but to me and to ben gan, ivan and kenneth..i guess..thats what we call--betraying..i really wish ben gan could come and scold me and hate me..then i would feel lesser guilt..everyone..says i'm not in fault..i've done the right thing...plus the person who really have to blame is banana..coz he told me the wrong amount..wrong sum..i really very very depressed..who can help me?